Waiting for you

X'mas was awesome for me.I got to see someone that i have been missing.That was all i wanted for X'mas and i got it.I met up with L.M.S and stance at bishan.Then stance and to leave.L.M.S and i went to east coast.Met up with Amin.Went to the food court to have our dinner.After that walked down to the beach.Sat at the water breaker.We chatted about all our stupid things blasting the music on the Ipod.Suddenly we sat rats running upwards.We ran before they could attack us.hahas.We sat somewhere else.L.M.S and i were talking bout things that Amin could not hear.Cause we dun really knw if we can trust him yet.I accidentally said things to L.M.S bout haja.Amin heard it.Shit lah.I had to cover up.Like really big time.Amin asked me.But i dun knw if it was just talk or i really do have something.Right now everything is just mixed up.But it's haja.I'm always screwed up in this sort of matters.I'm trying to clear things up within myself first.

Skul is gonna start in like 9 days time.But before that i got a new year's eve party to plan.I've got to ask ppl if they want to come.how much we would all need to chip in.So much.The place has definatly been confirmed.East coast for sure.I've got 10 ppl on my list already.yup so till the next time.Emo punk never dies.*rabbits*


Ain't another woman that can take your spot my-

If I wrote you a symphony,
Just to say how much you mean to me (what would you do?)
If I told you you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular (tell me, would you?)
Well, baby I've been around the world
But I ain't seen myself another girl (like you)
This ring here represents my heart
But there's just one thing I need from you (say "I do")

[Chorus]
Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love

Ooooh, girl
My love
My love

Now, if I wrote you a love note
And made you smile with every word I wrote (what would you do?)
Would that make you want to change your scene
And wanna be the one on my team (tell me, would you?)
See, what's the point of waiting anymore?
Cause girl I've never been more sure (that baby, it's you)
This ring here represents my heart
And everything that you've been waiting for (just say "I do")

[T.I.'s rap]
Shorty, cool as a fan
On the new once again
Still has fan from Peru to Japan
Listen baby, I don't wanna ruin your plan
If you got a man, try to lose him if you can
Cause your girls real wild through your hands up high
Wanna come kick it wit a stand up guy
You don't really wanna let the chance go by
Because you ain't been seen wit a man so fly
Friend so fly i can go fly
Private, cause I handle mine
Call me candle guy, simply because I am on fire
I hate to have to cancel my vacation so you can't deny
I'm patient, but I ain't gonna try
You don't come, I ain't gonna die
Hold up, what you mean, you can't go why?
Me and you boyfriend we ain't no tie
You say you wanna kick it with an ace so high
Baby, you decide that I ain't your guy
Ain't gon lie ,Me in your space
But forget your face, I swear I will
Same mark, same bullet anywhere I chill
Just bring wit me a pair, I will

Have i fallen in love again?

Nothing has happened except that last night was fucking awesome.Went home soaked in our own sweat.Thats how we danced. So fun.Well i dun want to say much though.Cause in dancefloors u have fun like fuck.I enjoyed yesterday that is for sure.

Well 2 very closed ppl have parted.It's such a pain to see them leave each other.I've been so close to this couple.But in the end it's for the best.I wish them both a wonderful love life from now on.

Have i fallen in love? I don't even know but i know that i miss him badly.I'm just so scared to fall in love after a particular relationship.To drown my sorrows and confusions.I watched Love actually on friday night.I cried twice by the end of the movie.I remember watching holiday the other day.I'm exactly like Kate winslet's character.The one sided love shit. I relate so much to that particular character.Well i really wish that 2007 has a better love life for me.

I'm quitting my smoking habit.I dunno why but i've already started to quit.Today is my last day of work.Goona miss working at chat.So yup that is it.Emo punk never dies.*rabbit*


The words are hushed, lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here, from all the stupid questions.
"Hey did you get some?". Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelry,
which ever you prefer.

And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.

Misletoe

Gonna make this a short entry.
Yesterday accompanied Fara to the vet.She had to bring pepe.She had to be checked.After that we went to eat. Brought back tinkerbell and pepe.Feed pepe haer medcine.Had the hardest time getting that capsule down pepe.I headed home after.
Had to wake up like 7 in the morning.Followed my brother and father to school.Miraculously my brothr got posted to Sgs. After that went back home and caught up on my sleep.
I haven gone out with him in like 3 days.So weird cause it was like everyday with them.Not seeing him for so long is like weird.But still tmr night clubbing.Can't wait.
So yup that is about it.Merrychristmas.Emo punk never dies.*rabbit*

Confession on a dancefloor

Tuesday i went clubbing at Attica.Again Paul twohill had to be there.I don't like him though.Guess who i saw?Justin my ex.Oh my gosh ya.He just tapped me and i was like hello. Like it's been a long time ago since i saw him last.But heard he got 5 for his N's. After that it was like dancing all night with Bikash,Diq,Han,Amin,L.M.S and stance.So fun.All my fav RnB and hip-hop songs.In the end i was like gryating with some random Ang moh guy. Ya i knw bitch.But wat the fuck.I din drink alcohol that much.Only a sip or two of L.M.S vodka with orange juice.

Next clubbing night would be at DXO.Saturday night.Another Hip-hop night for me.It's gonna be fun like big time.

My love life is like officially gone.No one sees the girlfriend material in me.It's only friend material.Even he sees me as a friend and nothing else more.I've tried so hard but we are still friends.What do i have to do to get him?Get over him?Like fuck. Kill me.I'm gonna miss his gig on sunday.I already apologised.I can't get off but so weird taking my off for him. Ah rev stop it.Head over heels already.

Anyway christmas weekend and day i'm so busy.Sat going for Ruth and grace x'mas party and then going off to work.Sunday going over my bro's godma house for an x'mas party.I haven even gotten nicole a present.She is like 3yrs old.So cute.I need to go toy r us like real soon. After that it is off to work.On x'mas day itself got x'mas lunch with my mum's company.I'm on stand by at work and it is my last day.No more work.

I can't wait for new year's eve.Drinking and enjoying our night away.It's so sad that every new year i don't get to kiss someone.I'll try to make this new year a little different.Lets see what happens though.

My new years resolution:
1.I need a boyfriend.No more flinging.
2.Study even more harder.It's my o's year.Planning to get like 18 points.
3.Wish lady alaska gets good gigs
4.Start saving more.
5.Hanging out with my bestfriend more too.I've been neglecting our friendship.

That is about it.If i have more i'll write it in my next entry.Till my next entry than.Emo punk never dies.*rabbits*

Solemnly sweared

I got back my results.I never expected to get promoted.I got a 1 for english.4 for maths,accounts and combine humans.A 5 for combine science.As usual my mother toungue fail.so total 9 points.I'm so happy.Next year must work extremely hard already.Hazwan,sadiq,Raihan and bikash made it.So lady alaska is doing their o-levels next year even Amin. Stance made it.Congrats to all of you all.

So last of whole have been working and hanging out.

On monday i can't really rmb wat i did.It's a big blur to me.

On tuesday went out to penni.Went to send my bass for servicing.Was with amin and L.M.S.Then went down to beach road to get stuff.Back to penni to collect it.Met up with Han and Adi.L.M.S went off to meet her bestfriend.So the four of us head down to gas haus to meet up the organiser.Had to choose our time slots.All the band people had to draw lots.The first time was 11.40.Weren't happy.Second time the same thing.In the end a bit of barganing.We got 8.40.So after that it was back home for us.Took 80 straight back home.

On wednesday it was work.so nothing much.

On thursday was jamming in the noon time.Before that went to have lunch with Grace,Ruth and Fara.ate at Pastamania.Then jamming.Amin's friend Iggy came.Finally i got to meet him.I swear his so good looking.Again his younger then me.Sad case.So it was straight to work from there.

Friday.Gig day.Got up at 12.Had an appointment at the saloon.Got my hair rebonded.THen went home to get my staff.Took a train to serangoon.Met up with Amin and Bikash.Then met L.M.S and stance.Bikash,Amin and me went to town to get bikash thing.Then went to beats to jam.After that went to sit outside KFC.Met some people to pass tickets or just friends.Walked down to gas haus to leave our things. We were upstairs just doing things. We performed at 10.00 cause there was some problems.I swear it was my worst performance.I forget chords and all.Amin just stopped.I understand from his point of view.It's his first time and all.Well i went out and cried.L.M.S and stance comforted me.After that we just forgot everything and had fun.We drank,Smoked and just played around.I tink i had like 6 or 7 cups of alcohol.I was not even high.The 2 most hated person was in the same building as ma.Haja and Enoch.Oh my gosh.Lucky He was there.I did not confess to him.WE left gas haus aftre Bikash band performed.WE went to atar to eat.Then we taunt the whole night.Went back home at 6.When i woke up i confessed to Amin.Yes it's Amin who i've fallen badly for.He was very matured about it.Which is good.We are still friends.nothing has changed.

Saturday at work.

Sunday went to watch soccer withAmin,Mel,han and L.M.S.Man utd lost.dun wanna talk out it.Walked Amin home.His such a scaredy pants i swear.After that took a taxi back.

So thats my week.Now that my results are out.It's more drinking and having fun.Till then emo punk never dies.*rabbit*

Marriages,Relationships and Hook-ups

Today is my worst day ever.Morning had to get up at 8am for my friends wedding.So that was alright.After that got back home.So dame fucking tired.Thats when my day started falling.Then i realized we were not jamming.I've got three fucking songs to learn.I only have one day to learn it all.Fuck man.If i screw this gig i will cry.I don't care what the fuck people say.

Anyway the person i thought i hada crush turned out that i don't just have a crush.I fell for him badly.now after a long 1hour lecture i'm keeping my distance.His younger i know but in love age does not matter.But to fall in love again.It's just so hard to do that.I know things that is why i've kept a distance.No more flirting with him.I thought of confessing to him but now.I think i shouldn't.People it's not Hazwan if that is who you are thinking about.

Well i bout a macbeth shoe for 118 bucks.yup it's original.Straight out of 2001.His called Eliot.I've started naming the things that i love.Yesterday sent Malacai for servicing.His my bass.I paid like 40 bucks for him.I love him though.Without him i would not be bassist for Lady Alaska.

Well on the gig day there will be a total diff thing to me.I'm getting my hair done.so people check out my new hair.

Anyway till my gig day it's that's all.emo punk never dies.*rabbits*

I write sins not tragedies

Its Not been that long since i blogged.Six days.Well lots have happened though.Firstly being back with Lady alaska is awesome obviously.Temporarily our drummer has changed.It's Amin(drummer boy).Bikash is our back up vocals currently.The band sounds better now.Thats good though.Jamming daily till our gig.

Monday was at work.

Tuesday was just plain fun at MOS. Sadiq,Hazwan.Raihan,stance,little miss sueey and me could enter.Amin and bikash could not enter cause bikash does not have s'pore I.C and amin is underage.Sad case man.But well in the end sadiq pissed me off.Ha made me leave when plainsunset was performing.They were awesome.Just cause of jamming.But in the end we did jam from 12am to 1 am.Amin was pissed that he couldn't play the drums properly.Had to console him.He was alright.Drinking at the esplanade was fun.Little miss sueey,Bikash,Amin and i drank.Sadiq,han and stance just sat there and watched us go mad.Even though diq and han din drink.They looked drunk.hahas.Well i was high and i used the chance to flirt with him.Hahas.I had 2 vodka bottles and abit of leftover heinkein.Thats alot i know.After all the drinkin about 3am we went to take a cab back.I was so high that i din even change.I just went to sleep in what i was wearing.

Wednesday was at work again.

Thursday was my off day.So i went to meet little miss sueey and stance.Went to town.We hung aroung.Went to Forum toy r us.so fun.I love that place man.Felt like a kid all over again.The sword fight.The ball being thrown to the head and the wearing of the princess skirt.Man i miss those days.So we went to far east and amin called.Cause was suppose to meet him.So we met up with him and guess wat?little miss sueey and stance had to leave.So amin and me just hung around town till bout 9 plus.Made a secret phone call to little miss sueey and both of us made our way down to her place.Sat and chatted all night long. Amin and me left around 11 something.We took a cab and he dropped me off.

Friday was jamming day again.Met little miss sueey and then headed down to beats.Met up with the guys.Went to gas haus to jam.Wasn't that fun though. Diq went to work.Little miss sueey had to go off for an engagement.Han went back home.Bikash band Kalodin was performing at gas haus that night.Amin had to go jamming with his other band.So Hazwan and i followed him to wee lee then it was back to gas haus to catch Kalodin.Han and little miss sueey came a little later on.I got a jug of Vodka with sprite free other our bands name.After amin and i shared a glass of vodka.well Kalodin was awesome but there was a fight.when the police came we ran.Bikash got drinks under his band name.Jack Daniels with coke.It was very strong.Bikash was high for sure.I know i was too.hahas.Little miss sueey,han,Amin,Bikash and i had our dineer then we walked down to penninsula to catch 147.It was a fun walk.Getting hit,Screaming at the top of our lungs and just being mad.Hahas.A fun night.

Today i woke up with a msg from amin.Jamming.So headed down to wee lee.shocked to see fel there.She came to get tickets for our gig.Thanks fel.Had to work today.Could not go out with Amin,Bikash and little miss sueey.Shit lah.

Anyway,Fara left for Batam with Char today.she sent me a msg right before she left.Next week only working on wednesday,Thursday,Saturday and sunday.Yes.Hehes.anyway that is about it.till then emo punk never dies.*rabbit*


A star up in the sky
A poem to the dead
Let this mistake
Bring a vivid crystal to her eyes
So drain out my lungs
Before the fluid brings a choke
I can't inhale the sparkle of your voice
Let me walk on high wire of rusty nails
While barefoot shedding the flesh of our existance
I don't want anybody to fall
Now it's time
The more i try
The more i lose
but today
will you remember me?

A typical jam session

Thanks to the wonderful photography by little miss sueey.