My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill

Made my absence in skul today.Was dame sick.Fever.flu and headache.All in one can kill you man.Yesterday had to get through skul with all of that.I slept for awhile during accounts.Thank goodness mrs chan forget that the timetable changed.So she din turn up and i slept through for nearly 50 mins.After that fel,fad and me were chatting about our nonsense.It's fun talking to fad sometimes.Mum hugged me and she was like you have a fever.I love her hugs it makes me feel warm and safe.So she told me not to go to skul.I took a panadol and drank lots of hot water.I din go to sleep straight away.Was talking to him till like 3 a.m in the morning.during our long conversation was then that i realised how much i've missed our long chats and i've for sure missed him like hell.I never knew it though.I wonder if it's wrong for me to be with him when my bestest friend is in the ICU.I've got abit of guilt for doing that but i will still come see u more then him.you're more important to me than anyone right now.I've regretted so much not being with you that night.I still do regret.i'm sorry.I'll make it up when you wake up and speak to me.I was reading crystals blog and i just brokedown.Such sweet words she has to you and for fal,mal and me.Thanks crystal.

Back to skul tmr.It's friday already.How wonderful?Going for TPs openhouse.Can't wait.Heard much about the hot guys there and the hot girls too.hehes.After TP will be going back home to get changed and then to the hospital with Fel and i tink the bunch.I'll be leaving first though.Spending my night with him.Can't wait.So yuppy.Depressing kid signing out


Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Tonight
Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.