you just want to hurt me and leave me desperate

Fara has gone through her op smoothly.My wish came true.They are getting her out of her sedation soon.Her brain is still swelling.But at leats getting her out of sedation to see her response.I'm going to the hospital tmr.I'm going there alone.I got no one to accompany me.So i'm a loner.Haven seen her for so long.

Din go skul today cause i was sick.LmS dun worry i'm alrite.I'm just sick.I made promises to ppl.I won't break them.Dun worry.I have been tinking about alot of stuff that i forgot to take care of myself.B i should have listened to u.Now i'm sick.Haiz.Lessons learned from mistakes.

Anway got my weekend planned out already.I'm heading down to the beach to have some me time.Just trying to be alone till fara is alrite.I'm a loner.Then on sat meeting up with aaron in the aftrenoon and then going down to the hospital.In the evening i'm going Chat to meet up with my manager.Then if i leave chat early might go down to the beach again.Alone by myself.Anyone care to join me?I know no one will.I just want to talk to someone.I shall talk to myself.Sunday i might be going down to the hospital again.so yup my weekend is all for myself.

Depressing kid is leaving.till my next entry.

It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching for any sign
Of the ones he used to love..

He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left...)
And this time I think you'll know..

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

She's just like him
Spoiled rotten
Confused by the lies she's been fed
And she's searching for no one..
(But herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy
That she is here
And this time I think you'll know...

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out

(There is more to know)

We're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell..
(So tell me)

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
(Make it out)
You will live to tell
(Live to tell)
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
(And I know)
You can make it out
You will live to tell..

You are not alone.
You're not, you're not alone.