My everyday wars

Monday, January 08, 2007

Shooting star

I went down to the hospital yesterday to see Fara.I just stood there alone and looked at her.It saddens me still that i can't speak to her and hear her voice.So i saw Char and we went down for a smoke.We were sitting along the roadside.Talking about Fara and all.Happenly Char saw something from the corner of her eyes.She just started shaking and told me'eh revathi its a shooting star.It's a shooting star.'I turned and there it was falling.I made my wish immeadiatly.Char did too.Guess wat? she was hysterical about it after that.Telling everyone about it and msgin ppl about it.Mad lor that girl.Hahas.I'm still laughin at her mixed emotion look.Char made me realise yesterday that it always happens to the both of us.Fara told us something in our dreams and it was true.We felt Fara on the same day.The 2 ppl who was with her till the end.Fara's condition is kinda bad rite now?I really wonder if she is giving up.I wish she is not.I always want to break down but it's at the wrong places.I've been holding in so much tears for so long.I tink one day i'm gonna breakdown to one of you.I'm sorry if it happens.

I was suppose to go home alone.In the end the 3 guys,Agi,Fazli and Haja just came.So went back with the guys.As usual they and their lame jokes.Especially my B.Okay that is the best i can do.It's better than handyman.B stands for bestfriend.It's good already hor.Dun scold me okay.So went home and had the most irritating headache.When i woke up i was down with a bad flu.Had to go through school with my fucking flu and i din sleep at all.Maybe it's cause i just want to study for Fara that bad.I will continue through school.Once in awhile my memories just go back to the past.All the mad times we had and how much i used to bully you.Hahas.good times and then there are times when it goes back to the day i saw u for the very first time in the ICU.I rmbered you were cryin when u saw us.I will never forget that.So much things i really wan to say but i can't.I've been school,hospital and home.Once in awhile jamming.Other than that i stay at home.I can't have Fun knowing that u are in the hospital.I cut down on my outings.No more gigs,no more clubbing,no more drinking and i'll stop smoking.I promised my B already.So i have to.I've got to stop cutting my wrist also.Another promise i made.Dun worry i'm sticking to it.

So yup that is basically about it.To does guys who found out i cut my wrist.I'm sorry i was super down.I won't do it everagain.If i do i give you the permission to slap me.

She burns

Today's on fire
The sky is bleeding above me, and I am blistered
I walk these lines of blasphemy, every day
And still:

Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn

I feel diseased
Is there no sympathy from the sun?
The sky's still fire
But I am safe in here, from the world outside

So tell me
What's the price to pay for glory?

Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn

Today is fire, and she burns
Today is fire, and she burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns

Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn

0 Comments:

Post a Comment

Subscribe to Post Comments [Atom]

<< Home