super bored with life

My show is over.It was rocking.Models always rock shows.Hahas.kidding only.I looked totally diff till mum could not recognise me.That was how diff i was.But the show was awesome.And we are doing it again at holland close on the 11th nov.Aft my show went back home and rushed to the prata shop to meet little miss sueey and him.Watched man utd match and after so long get to smoke.After the match was begging him to meet up with sivam.I totally forgot sivams birthday.As usual guilty so went to meet him.so we took one of the last buses cause it was going to be 12.30am.So went under his block and we all chatted with.The both of them was playing cards.So little miss sueey went to take her random pics with her new camera.I just sat there and watched them play with cards.Around 1.30 we decided to leave.Sivam was such a good brother to give me 10 bucks for taxi. I reached home at nearly 2.
Okay i've got to say this but i'm super bored with life.Where is the enjoyment i used to feel?It's all gone.I need a fling.I've got someone in mind.But someone keeps on telling me a play thing may end up serious.but still i've been so tempted to send that msg to him.Now i'm just dead blur.but i've got to accept the negative consequence that might happen after i send the msg. So i'll still think about it.Until i've really decided to face everthing that might happen then i'll only send that msg.but my IT guy is still hazwan.I know FWB will never happen with him.So i'm keeping it down low about it.
Yup so that is about it.Emo punk never dies.*rabbit*