I stop at 40 to realize that I hate you

I'm over him.Yes i am. I feel so good saying that.After a week of cryin over him.I stopped at 40 cuts to realize that i hate him.Finally he just msged me telling me that i should forget him and i realized like i hate him.I go through so much and he asks me to forget him.Like fuck off man. I met her and him on tuesday night and she said that i looked like some IMH outpatient.Wat the hell?That must be what love depression can do to you.I lost so mush of weight.Now i'm simply stuffing myself with food to gain back all that lost weight.All those ppl who were there for me when i was in this point where i gave up.Thanks.I want to say a special thank you so much to Fara.I never really knew ppl read my blog.She msged me all of a sudden this morning to send me a super sweet msg.I guess even though we haven been talking.We still do keep track of each others life.Cause i've been checking out her blog too. But really thanks ya. Oh ya.guess what? I get to play my bass solo.Yes ah.I'm so happy.The sky is singing.Okay just ignore me and my madness.Yesterday got to go for a gig at gas haus.After that went jamming at arab street.Was quite fun at the beginning.Then i just started thinking bout him. Almost cried but what the hell?I'm with my band they make me laugh. We are like a bunch of mad idiots.hahas.no lah not idiots.A bunch of mad ppl.We finished jamming at 11.30.Was walking down to the bus stop,smoking and talking to raihan.After smoking i threw the cigarette into a place i thought was a open feild.Suddenly safwan screams'eh revathi that is a graveyard'. I go oh shit i'm screwed. But really stupid of me.So yup.this is life after rev recovers from a depression.She turns to a mad emo chic all over again.Emopunk never dies.*rabbit*