Let me break free

Damn coming home always is a pain. I wish i can never step in to this house.It's always screams that i hear.My feelings don't matter anymore.It's all cause of a past that i never wanted.I confess i lost control and i know i'm much better now.But the people whom i live with dun see that anymore.Which really kills me inside.I've said this too many times in this house,"I wish i could never come home."I know i'm gonna be in tears but i've promised myself way too many times i will not have a downfall in life anymore.I'll keep to it today and from now on as i never wanna break promises anymore.I know deep down i'll be hurting terribly but than this life will never be perfect and there will never be anything such as that.My smile will always be fake as inside i'm always crying and regetting everything.Changing yourself doesn't matter in this house anymore.As long as i know i've changed i'll stay happy at that.If not i would not be here anymore.

Screw all that i'm feeling.It was han's birthday and we gave him a surprise.Well after UT i left school and crashed Fel's place.Damn the house of dead has got us hooked.Like some gamers sia. laughoutloud!Damn my slacking is pretty bad and i wanna graduate in year3 not 4.Anyways so sadiq crashed fel's place as well after some stuff he had to do.We lazed around and left at 6 to go compass to meet the rest.Due to some screw ups we ended up at compass at 7.Darn you guys.hahas.So checked out han's whereabouts and bought the awesome cake.Got to his and we surprised him.After the surprise birthday we went under the block to slack.Okay really makes us sound like something.But then we ended up camwhoring.hahas.It was awesome.Love you han.

I guess having too much of fun can really kill someone inside.I've understood the concept of too much fun.It neutralizes with too much sadness.I'll fight it.I know i've got people around to talk to.Love you guys much again.Cheers to this suckish home.