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I'm feeling damn shitty today.Cause i feel things were a rush.I'm still wondering if it was faast.Cause i'm afraid of insecurities,ego and trust.The 3 major enemies of a relationship.Damn wait!Are we even in a relationship?Cause no qns were asked it just happened like that.The start is definately the honeymoon period and then comes all the shitty part.Am i really ready to go through that again?The last time it almost killed me. I know i'm stronger and that i've grown from my mistakes.Mistakes that were damn jialat.But i'm moving on.Shit i've a feeling he has a past that i dunno about. I hope it isn't something bad that would hurt me.
Well i've really grown stronger cause i would have text him by now but i haven.good me.No more first moves from me.I'll see how much effort he puts in and then i'll know.Fuck this is all cause of my fucking lack of trust.
Anyways today i went to smoke and met baby.When i got back to class.Michelle and jogina were cam whoring with my cam.Hahas.The pics made my day for sure.They are my cam-whore darlings.hahas.love ya'll much.
After skul met up with diq.Went to starbucks(compass).Had a heart to heart that really made me think alot today.I told diq everything already.I see the disappointment in him cause of the fastness.Well his happy that i still told him.But he'll give me the proper green light when he checks baby out.So yep.Wat would i have done without sadiq?lol.Well on diq's part we spoke about a couple of things.In conclusion of our conversation:Everyone has a bad side that would kill us.
yup so thats about it.Till a happy entry.cheers.

Your subtleties they strangle me
I can't explain myself at all
And all the wants, and all the needs
All I don't want to need at all

The walls start breathing, my mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone
A weight is lifted on this evening
I give the final blow

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight

A falling star, at least I fall alone
I can't explain what you can't explain
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing, my mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone
A weight is lifted on this evening
I give the final blow

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight, it ends tonight
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight, it ends tonight, it ends tonight

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight, it ends tonight

It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight, it ends tonight, it ends tonight
Tonight, insight
When darkness turns to light it ends tonight